Heather's Hash
I have never wanted to become a "Gleek" fan - I thought that it was silly, ridiculous and not worth my time - how wrong I was.
I am now a self professed "Gleek-fan" - why?? I love the fact that this story line portrays so perfectly the meanness and vindictiveness that is high school. Even the teachers are horrible to each other - namely good ole Sue Sylvester - the one you want to love to hate. She has many issues, very evident..I look
forward to finding them out as I am sure all "Gleeks" are.
What is not funny is the fact that this bullying and cliche bullshit is all over the place in schools all over our country. It breaks my heart - so much hatred - so much un-understanding - I want to know what God wrote "the Book" on how to be in high school or for that matter in high school or even later in life. No God I believe in - my God gave his only SON to save our pitiful souls from a hell beyond anything our small minds could EVER imagine. How small minded can we be to put people in "categories" and judge them by those so called "categories" - it's against all GOD stands for!!
One time - ONE TIME - I fell victim to this insane crap - I was in first grade - a girl named "Colleen" had copied me and bought the same lunch box that I did - this irritated me because I wanted to be "different" - not follow everyone else - my BIGGEST mistake???? I was the cause of great heartache for her - at lunch that day - a favorite thing to do was to raise our hands and "vote" - whether it was against a person or something we didn't like - I fell for the biggest trap - I had everyone vote against Colleen - I asked "Who hates Colleen because she can't get her own idea for a lunch box - she has to copy me??" - sadly - all hands of the twelve students raised - even worse - the same table that Colleen was sitting at - I happened to look at her face and what I saw ripped me apart - if I should EVER cause that much selfish pain against some poor innocent person than I hope I drop dead the instant it happens - it was horrible - I sought her out and apologized - it KILLED me to see some sweet, innocent girl CRY because of what I had said...I told her I was mad because I felt like she was copying me - she said her parents had bought it for her since she too loved the "Six Million Dollar Man" - I felt like total SHIT....to make someone cry -that is so not right in my book - even at the age of 5 yrs. old it was WRONG!! God loves us all and I think there is much to be learned from this - who the heck did I think I was trying to "own" the "right" to that particular lunch box - I hugged her and cried and tole her how very sorry I was to cause her pain - I told her I thought it was "way cool" we had the same lunch boxes" and that we could hang out whenever she wanted and I hoped that she accepted my apologies - thankfully, she did. Are we best friends now? - No - we were totally different people, she moved and I can only PRAY that she met kinder people than I turned out to be.
To this day I feel bad - causing someone to cry - KILLS me - who the heck am I to judge anyone??? I'll tell you - I am no one - just a girl who loves God and feels like for a long moment I severely disappointed him....for all the people who think that Gods' will makes your life horrible or whatever difficulties you are gong thru - you have to stop that way of thinking - for God to sacrifice his only child to save our selfish asses I would have to say, God is pretty awesome.
I have a miserable, chronic illness that robs me from 87% of my life due to pain - and I so DO NOT blame God, I thank him over and over again for all the miracles in my life - a husband/best friend beyond compare and 2 super daughters. I want to enjoy our lives together, which I am unable to do thru my pain and feeling sick all the time....I want to point out that all of you who have perfect bladders - THANK GOD, because if you don't have IC - you are lucky enough to never get the idea of how much this - well - SUCKS...God does not chose the hell we go thru - that is all part of the "whole free choices to make decisions - good or bad is at play..
Doses my illness "kill" - sometimes - but the thoughts of my husband and incredible daughters keep me going. I refuse, REFUSE to let I.C. rob me of anything else in my life...it has taken my ablility to be ME - to be spontaneous, to live for today..when your best friend becomes an heating pad, well, you know you are in trouble.
So, please, take the time to be nice to someone who "appears" different by your standards - they may be the best thing that ever happened to you. Different is GREAT - if we were all the same life would get pretty damn boring..
I have one other person I want to set the record straight with, but that is another long story for another day....
Just promise me to hold your real and true friends close, love them - cherish them....and if you ever - EVER witness bullying of any kind - DO SOMETHING - because otherwise - well babes - you are just as bad as the bully.
Much love and peace for all my friends out there - may God follow, lead, guide you to a peaceful life - remember though - God helps them who help themselves - so if you want to be a nub and do nothing to help yourself to be a better person, than don't expect any help...
Much love and peace to my friends & followers on here....♥ ♥
